What is the most important thing to you?
S I N E A D
Most important thing to me.
I’ve tried to write this so many times without sounding pretentious, cliché or boring and I just keep erasing everything I have. Simply because I am not quite sure what the answer to the question is, I’m not sure anyone does. But if I had to talk about one thing, which I do, every time I think about writing about this one thing comes to mind. Being true to myself. Now I am unsure whether this is THE most important but it is a driving force in my life which results in me doing most of what I do.
This could turn into a dragged out 5000-word essay so to keep things short and sweet I am going to break this up. Being true to yourself is not as easy as it sounds because life can get hard and busy and you can just fall into a day by day motion. When I started university, I got so overwhelmed by the workload and my own expectations on myself that I stopped doing the things I used to describe myself on. I stopped reading, I stopped acting, I stopped my photography, I stopped writing in my notebook, I stopped going to the gym, I stopped writing reminders and planning my weeks ahead. I started to get stressed out with my workload and other shit in life but then I remembered that sometimes you have to go out of your way, find energy you don’t have and do something that makes your mind, body, and soul tick.
So, one step in being true to myself is making sure I do the things I love doing, my hobbies and my random little rituals such as lighting my scented candles and incense while listening to music at night. Ensuring that each day I do something I love keeps a passion for life burning within me. Although I do not do my hobbies as often as I would like, which I am sure is the same for everyone, it is important to keep in mind that we are becoming adults. This means more responsibilities, bigger workloads, more money and time constraints. This is not necessarily a bad thing, in fact, it’s a positive because we begin discovering new things about ourselves. However, it is of utmost importance to me I remember the different things I enjoy doing and not letting the transition into adulthood stop me from finding time to do those hobbies that are a building block in who I am. There is never too little time to do the things that give you a fire and passion within.
The other step in being true to myself is being true to the person I am. It is about recognising the past as the past and knowing how it has made me who I am today. It is about constantly striving to be the best version of myself today and in the future. A part of this is saying no to things I do not like doing, it is not putting myself into situations where I am uneasy because it is not what I enjoy and it is about being strong. In my life I have constantly had to do things that I did not like, I have had to experience things I did not want to and I had to deal with behaviour that was unpleasant. So now I surround myself with beautiful people, I stand up for myself and my beliefs, I appreciate those who have a positive impact on my life and I strive to be a person I would like to be around.
Although this is all very vague it is important that people are true to themselves, that they appreciate, accept and love who they are and only surround themselves with the things they enjoy and people who treat them right. Although this is not how it always works out it is better to try than to let who we are slip away from ourselves. It is important that we continue doing the things that make us us, however often this may change, despite the busy-ness of adulthood. I believe if I am true to myself and who I am happiness will follow.